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2005-04-15 :: 5:46 p.m.
Friday, April 15th, 2005
3:15 pm Once again, not updating about my day.
A - Age you got your first kiss: like 15? I was too much of a guy before then, and the guys I knew probably didn't want to see homosexual (haha).
B - Band listening to right now: The Academy Is... (right now, right now, New Found Glory is in the cd player)
C - Crush: a kind of soda. I was going to say no one, but wait...WILLIAM!!!
D - Dad's name: Steve
E - Easiest person to talk to: Andy...prolly because I don't ever talk to him face to face (haha)
F - Favorite bands at the moment: Something Corporate, The Academy Is..., Man of the Year
G - Gummy worms or gummy bears?: gummy bears. They normally have more flavors and such.
H - Hometown: Dub-town! (Woodburn)
I - Instruments: clarinet. Used to play bass guitar, want to learn guitar guitar.
J- Junior High: French Prairie Middle School (and I swear it wasn't until 8th grade that I knew how to spell it. I-T)
K - Kids: I pawned them all off. Eh, none yet, but I'm having exactly two and one will be a boy and one will be a girl and if that doesn't happen I'm blaming the father of my children (who will hopefully be my husband...but sometimes things just don't go that way).
L - Longest car ride ever: I think 13 hours. I don't remember any other long trips.
M - Mom's name: Susan
N - Nicknames: It's funny how my nickname progressively got smaller: Beamer, Beam, B. Look up also: Beamer-lemur, Beam-a-ling, Steph, Stepharoo, Stephy, Garbage (almost forgot that one...how!), Cheese, Cheesy Garbage, Cripple, Crip, Whore, Shovel
O - One wish: more wishes? I know that doesn't work. To make something of my life.
P - Phobia[s]: heights
Q - Quote: This is something I said that's funny (because there's waaaay too many good quotes out there):
Christie: What do you think about chest hair?
*I look around, thinking*
Me: Who the hell is Chester?
R - Reason to smile: I miss my puppy. Stupid things I do. Guys that reciprocate certain feelings.
S - Song you sang last: In full? "Silly Drunk Boy" by me. In public, probably Britney Spears, "Baby One More Time" at the Clackamas County Fair.
T - Time you woke up [today]: A little before 9AM (sleep in day, hah)
U - Unknown fact about me: I have a sixth toe. Just kidding. Um, I just claimed Straight Edge a few weeks ago (and the reason this is unknown is so no one thinks I'm a jerk like what many straight edge kids normally are (before getting their ass kicked by others). So, please, don't spread this around. Thank you.)
V - Vegetable you hate: many raw vegetables. And, like, I think I tried brussel sprouts and I hate it.
W - Worst habit(s): I started biting at my finger. Like, not biting my nails, just chewing on the skin aroud it (sounds gross, but it started with the hangnails and now it's just something to do.)
X - X-rays you've had: I think three now? My knees, like freshman year. And my back two weeks before I got my knee done (so much radiation in the month of March).
Y - Yummy food: sushi
Z - Zodiac sign: libra
Current Mood: blah
Current Music: Hit or Miss, New Found Glory
Thursday, April 14th, 2005
11:01 pm Imma gonna be a Iron Chef
I'm only writing in this so that I remember that it'd be totally rad to dress up as an Iron Chef for Halloween. Like, I'm practicing being Iron Chef Sakai (I took a quiz and I'm most like him), holding the pear and all. Just need a red silk robe and a weird hat and I'm good. Dude, I looked up this Iron Chef drinking game and like you're supposed to drink if Kaga (the chairman) says "If memory serves me right..." and he totally did! I didn't realize he said it so much until now...
I'm sick and feeling miserable, but you get used to it. I think tonight is a night I get to be all by myself. My roommate went out, so you know. Ahhhhh, I just was looking at Yahoo in Japanese. Ah. I'm not ready for that.
My mind, not working as well as it normally does, so I'm sorry if this is really bland. Oh yeah, surgery is either going to be Tuesday or May 3rd. Most likely May 3rd. Stupid chem messing with my possible surgery on Tuesday. Well, I'm going to entertain myself with Iron Chef and hope to get some much needed sleep soon.
Oh yeah, and I'm inspired to make a new mix of songs I couldn't get enough of/can't get enough of. And my "I don't want no 4 minute man" mix as well. That'll be great.
Dude, if I decide to be Sakai, I need one of those huge hats, and like a gold bow and like a lot of stuff. Dude, I need to just get normal chef garb but in silk and red. Haha, I know what the secret ingredient is before it comes out...UDON!!! Mmm, I have udon noodles, too bad I loaded up on experimental mac and cheese (different than mac and cheese...it's a story for another time. Unless you're trash.). Time to get ready for bed, I don't know. Blah.
Current Mood: sick
Current Music: Better Off Dead, New Found Glory
Tuesday, April 12th, 2005
1:39 pm I felt like sharing...
My life reads like the classifieds.
Pages of what's for sale; whats on the auction block.
Attention bidders! Its line 45.
He's got a decent voice, he's got that crooked smile.
Hold on, you havent heard the best yet.
He writes good storylines, he's got those honest eyes.
So take him home for just $9.95.
He'll sing the songs you like, he'll keep you warm at night.
Back down, cash out, that's the city for you.
Break down and back out, and get what's coming to you.
When you said you were falling apart I thought you meant that you were falling apart.
I'm not the type to forget about nights like this,
where every single move that I make is documented and scored for style points.
The once ambitious one now holds the smoking gun.
And if I die in my sleep, are you still willing to be everything you promised you would be?
Back down, cash out, that's the city for you.
Break down and back out, and get what's coming to you.
When you said you were falling apart I thought you meant that you were falling apart.
Will you be the first one to tell the neighborhood paper
and all my family and friends that still care?
Did you buy what I sold and did you feel what I told you?
I hope you still do. Will you promise yourself, that this isn't all we've got?
Back down, cash out, that's the city for you.
Break down and back out, and get what's coming to you.
When you said you were falling apart I thought you meant that you were falling apart.
Current Mood: complacent
Current Music: Classifieds, The Academy Is...
11:47 am I swear, I'm going to go there someday.
You Belong in London
A little old fashioned, and a little modern.
A little traditional, and a little bit punk rock.
A unique woman like you needs a city that offers everything.
No wonder you and London will get along so well.
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I think like during Spring Break or something. After I go to Alaska. Or something, who knows. I guess it's not too popular like wintertime. Although you'd think it would be because of Christmas...
Monday, April 11th, 2005
10:04 pm And they say the food's bad.
(I'm writing this as an editorial/forum article. Since after all, I'm going to work at the Barometer one day. For you non-OSU pimps, that's the OSU newspaper. I've already written this twice, and I get to do it again thanks to technology. Enjoy!)
Ah, the good ol' Freshman 15. Most college students, if not all, have heard of it. In fact, they dread it. Who wants to gain 15 pounds just because they went to college?
Okay, we all know it's not just because we go to college. Our lives change, and our lifestyles change. Maybe we used to play sports in high school, and now we don't have to go to practice everyday. Maybe it's because we're away from the parents and get to eat whatever we want and our parents can't stop us. Maybe it's because we're extremely stressed out about how large our school work is and we run to the one thing that can comfort us instantly, food.
This don't have to be this way. Ever since I arrived at OSU, I have had my own version of the Freshman 15; I lost fifteen pounds. It wasn't that hard actually, and that's why I want to tell you how I did it. Here's an example of what I ate and what I did today.
Supposedly, we should not miss breakfast because it's the most important meal of the day. Honestly, I don't believe this, because we're college students. Either, we are too lazy to get breakfast, we are too busy to get breakfast, or we sleep in so late it's already lunch (or dinner). Just to make myself feel better, I carry a bag of Apple Jacks and some water with me. If all else fails, it's weightlifting, college style. I have weightlifting that I have to walk to, and I figure that's my exercise for the day. Especially the walking. Honestly, we take 15 minutes to walk to class, when in high school it may have taken five minutes (unless you were me, and you had to make a "pit stop" with your boyfriend in an empty hallway). They stick you in classes far away from each other. You also have no way of getting anywhere without walking because the parking permits cost so much, even then your car can't go down certain streets, plus you can't find a parking spot.
The most important part of my diet is lunch. I started off thinking I would eat healthy, having ham and cream cheese on a bagel, with strawberries, water, and eventually chips. This was a bad idea. You should not choose a healthy meal, and I'll explain later. After that, my friend went to get candy to fill her candy drawer (more info on that one later as well). I went by the brownies and found myself wanting one. I also decided to leave with a baked potato loaded with sour cream and cheese. Then, I walked (walking again) to my dorm, grabbed some candy, and pigged out on my lunch. Afterward, I felt full, and actually fell asleep. I ended up not being hungry for the rest of the night, but unfortunatly I did eat some popcorn because my body was used to eating more than one meal a day.
Okay, so there are some keys to this diet. To start off with, the candy drawer. Most likely, when you do buy candy, you might buy some you're going to eat before you even get up to your room. But you will also have stuff you aren't going to eat right away, and this can be stored in a drawer for moments when you are craving sugar. This works great because if you really want a certain kind of candy, you have to walk to go get it. Also, you should keep some kind of snack that is moderately healthy around. Good examples are Cheez-its, popcorn, or pretzels. Good for moments when you are really hungry but don't want a full meal. Also, you shouldn't stick to a completely healthy meal. At least if it's not something you're used to. Your body will just crave the fatty foods and not be full until you have it. However, you can reduce the amount of these foods you have, until you no longer need them. The same is with the candy, because you can substitute with fruit for natural sugar.
Some of you may not believe that this is the key to my success, and honestly, it's true. It's just the way I ate today because I was stupid enough to eat way too much for lunch. We really should be eating between 3-5 times a day and following that triangle we have seen since we were little kids. Walking is a great exercise, but honestly, we're paying to go to this school, so we're paying for a gym/rec center membership, so you might as well not waste your money. Some of the information in this can be used, like some of my keys, but you really shouldn't eat like I did today. The reason I didn't feel so good was because it was something I'm not used to. In fact, before I came here I used to eat like that for lunch and dinner, but I've eaten less because of the combination of the food not being so great and the fact that I'm not as bored as I used to get. Boredom still hits me and I still look to food, but I try surrounding myself with healthy alternatives. I also joined a club sport so I can get some exercise in. If you just need motivation, find a friend. Who wouldn't want to be healthier and look better?
(Okay, I'm done now. Yay me. I'm going to become an OB/GYN...maybe. I need to make sure to study hard if I want to get into med school though. I figure if I get a biochemistry degree with A's and B's, then I should be okay in case I want to change professions. Yes. I'm done now.)
Current Mood: full
Current Music: Thank Your Stars, Man of the Year
5:55 pm It's not the first time this has happened...
but I totally woke up, didn't know where I was, what time it was, or even what day it was. My roommate walked in the door, I think she said hi (I don't quite remember well when I'm sorta asleep). She said something, said she hadn't seen my sweatshirt before, to which my response was a shoulder shrug, and then she said she was going to get dinner. Wow. I think I said it's okay, I'm up after she might have said sorry for waking you up. I don't know. But now, after she left, and I have been lying down, I realize it is not Tuesday morning, but instead Monday almost evening. And I totally am missing out on my JASA meeting (I think it stands for Japanese American Student Association...but I'm not sure as I have yet to attend a meeting). I don't feel good, and I think it's because I ate SOOOOO much for lunch. Ugh, feel yucky. I think I'm going to sleep some more.
Current Mood: sick
Current Music: Western Sun, Man of the Year
8:34 am More bands?
Okay, so I remember that I forgot that I saw The Early November (I was all like they're cute because they had long hair I think...I don't remember). Oh yeah, and let me not totally forget about American Hi-Fi (and whoever they came with...because I don't remember. But I remember Jon had a butt load of buttons which most of them came from that concert. I think The Early November were at that one? And some other bands I don't remember).
I better get ready for class. Figuring I'm usually gone by now (but I can walk soooo much better now). And I'm not listening to The Academy Is... (how could I, I know. Haha, my roommate asked if I had it memorized yet...)
Current Mood: mellow
Current Music: Too Late, Man of the Year
Sunday, April 10th, 2005
11:11 pm Stupid Myspace got addicting.
And not because of people. I totally found out this band that the lead singer is someone my mom used to work with is on there. And I've been listening to (and loving) their music for quite some time now. AHHHHH! So addicting. I might message them and say sup yo, haha. Yes. Anywho, stupid people are smoking outside and it's coming up here. Hopefully by the time I brush my teeth they will be done. I feel bad, my roommate just turned the light off to go to sleep and I go ahead and start writing. And by writing, I mean the loud typing that is a laptop. Although it really throws me off when I get to a regular laptop. I'm all confused by the really high keys and such. I'm happy I got good grades last term though, since my mom was all you can have it if you get a good GPA (she was saying 3.5...I got her down to a 3.0). I felt bad because I thought I couldn't actually do it. College sucks, but I'm trying. Anywho, I better get some sleep so I can do more of that trying.
Current Mood: chipper
Current Music: Supernatural, Man of the Year
4:33 pm You know what I need to do?
Other than actually write a journal entry (I was going to earlier, but I decided nah, pretended to do homework, but we all know how that goes). I should try to figure out who I've seen in concert. I think I'm going to have to ask for help on this one. As well as check with people like Eroya, Ernie, and Meggie...or something. I know I don't remember them all. And I don't know where to start. Maybe I'll just go with what I remember. Yes. When I get it ALL figured out, then I'll get bored and put it in alphabetical order and put it on myspace or something.
Fall Out Boy
Midtown x2
The Academy Is...
Gym Class Heroes
Armor for Sleep
Recover x2
(And two other bands I forget)
The Business
Tiger Army (didn't stay though)
(two other bands again)
The Virus
The Escaped
Anti-Flag
(wow, I'm bad at this)
Something Corporate x2
Vendetta Red
Juliana Theory
Finch
New Found Glory
Box Car Racer
H20
Further Seems Forever
Flashlight Brown
Yellowcard
(I know there's a lot more punk concerts I went to with Eroya. We went to a lot together. Hmm. And some other ones. Stupid memory. If you have any you remember, let me know!)
Current Mood: blank
Current Music: Black Mamba, The Academy Is...
Friday, April 8th, 2005
5:30 pm It's been sooooo long since...
I walked in the rain. So, this morning I left and I'm out of my building and like crap I forgot a jacket. It was relatively sunny and my shirt kept me warm, so I figured I'd only have to walk in it a little if it rained. I made it to all of my classes and Trash's dorm without being rained on. It wasn't until I got kicked out of Trash's room (since she has a job, something I only dream of) that it started raining again (it did it on and off or something. Or maybe that was yesterday. I think it was yesterday). So I walked all the way home to Finley from Wilson (okay, so you non-OSU familiar people, just imagine a dorm far far away from another one, okay?). It was okay though, kind of nice. I wasn't freezing either. I don't think I'll get sick either. And, another reason why Nike Sphere stuff rocks my socks. Kept me soooo warm, yay! I got to talk with Trash and Christie today, both of those chats were nice. And someone on Ashley's floor called me the crazy woman or something. Man, if they called me woman that's an accomplishment. Unless they just said woman, I don't really like when guys say that. Anywho, yeah. I violated Trash's whiteboard with words. VAGINA VAGINA VAGINA!!! You're never going to get away from VAGINA Trash! After all, you have one. Well, I'm assuming so. The transvestite episode of CSI was on again last night. It's a good episode though, and the transvestites are real ones! That sounds weird, but I thought it was really cool. Not just actors in makeup, you know. The Academy Is... was mentioned in the Barometer (OSU's newspaper) and I was like, look look! And then I told Trash I was going to email whoever wrote it that they were awesome...only to find out it was someone I just made friends with on facebook (www.thefacebook.com). Only cool college students who go to cool colleges can get into that. Unless your Nicole, because it's the same password as my computer at home (if you get bored...but don't message people okay. I'm not going to be your whore! And I don't want to whore on people. And if I have messages don't answer. You know, all those things that you should leave alone because I have the worst love life in the world). It's true. I'm in love with the guy at the Tualatin Dutch Bros. who gave me four stamps for one drink and was listening to some rad music. He was cute too! Haha. He's right below my love for William. Actually, he's waaay below William, but I mean, he's next after William. I'm just chillin in my room now, waiting until I'm like sorta dry and all. My brain is drained for a little while. My roommate is gone, so I think I might finish my song this weekend! Possibly. Maybe. Unless I go home. Yesh.
Current Mood: blah
Current Music: The Phrase That Pays, The Academy Is...
Thursday, April 7th, 2005
6:59 pm I was going to say I'm a hypocrite...
about how I complain about people not writing a lot and how I wasn't. But actually, I wrote something yesterday. Although I consider it the day before, it was just like after midnight. So anyway, I've forgotten all the witty things I've wanted to say in this, but I will say...
**KNEE REPORT**
So, my knee is more messed up than originally though. Not only is it a COMPLETE tear of my ACL, but I've got bruising on the bone (I saw it in the MRI, and it was pretty darn big...with a bunch of other things. It was cool seeing the ACL hanging down in two pieces), and they think there could be something wrong with my meniscus. Aww man, when we play U of O next year in rugby, I may want to take out some hos. But I won't, I'm too nice and don't play dirty.
So yeah, that was that. And he told me to stop using both the immobilizer and the crutches. I'm happy to be free (FREEDOM!!!), but I have to walk normal. Normal is hard after not doing it for a month. And I have to do physical therapy before the surgery, as well as possibly six months of it after. Four months until I can run, six until I can do sports. It sucks, all the things you're supposed to be (healthy, active) goes against you when you damage your ACL. Only because you want to keep the healthy, active lifestyle though. I got to take stairs normally for the first time in a long time. I'm not going to do it up to the fourth floor though. Downstairs is a bitch.
Still listening to The Academy Is... and I found the article in the A&E that I was looking for. It's not bad. I might take it with me on MAY 20TH!!! to see if William can sign it or something. Amongst other things I want him to sign. Haha...dirty joke in my head right now.
I've come up with quite a few song ideas in my head, but I can't really write them down. And I want to finish my song. Oh yeah, and that one comment, late at night, oh yes, I have closure now and I am happy. Long story short, yes.
I think I'm going to break out the Peeps. After telling Christie we should start the bunsen burner and roast marshmellows (during lab, we had to wait around for like an hour and a half. She said we didn't have marshmellows, I said I have Peeps!). I might break open a chocolate egg Peep. I should take one to math for Trash (wait, I hope she didn't read that! It's supposed to be a surprise, okay Trash? Act overly surprised if you read this).
I need dinner, and maybe by then I'll think of more things to write. I had a lot of ideas in my head, but they go really quick. Blah.
Oh yeah, I had that one Fall Out Boy song stuck in my head that I say I know when I don't know all of it and I thought it was the Christmas song. Well, I listened to that song on repeat when I was in Portland to see the orthopedic surgeon. I got socks for Jess, and told her it was part of the Oregonians reaching out the Hawaiians by giving them socks because they don't wear shoes. Yes. She said I should make sock leis. Don't think I won't start that up!
Current Mood: exhausted
Current Music: Slow Down, The Academy Is...
Wednesday, April 6th, 2005
12:38 am ...
And I got the answer I was looking for...
(Now I can move on and be happy)
Tuesday, April 5th, 2005
10:56 pm Yeah, I know I just wrote something.
But I'm going to write a song called, "I should write a song like a book." I had inspiration walking on crutches by myself. I'm sooo getting a book to put my songs in and it's sooo going to go everywhere with me because my inspired moments are when I can't do anything. And yes, I don't know what else. I keep eyeing the piano when I'm downstairs. Today I was supposed to work on it. Maybe once I finish reading lots and lots of chem I'll actually do it. Tomorrow I'm busy so it won't be then. Who knows when, but someday. Yes. I GET DUTCH BROS TOMORROW!!! I love when my mom supports my coffee addiction. It's a coffee addiction, not caffeine addiction. Damn Andrew. And I don't even talk to him anymore! Boys. Oh yeah, and there's two (count em', TWO!!!) cute guys working at Dutch Bros. *Drool* If only I could go there more.
Current Mood: groggy
Current Music: Attention, The Academy Is...
